It’s a funny world we live in – last week there were some absolute atrocities going on in Beirut and Paris (& no doubt other parts of the world) with acts of terror being carried out and I remember waking up feeling really sad about what was going on and questioning how it would ever end. Today I still spare a thought to the lives lost, but I’m really grateful for my life and all that it entails – even the messy aspects – and I’m excited about the new chapter that is opening for me.
How can so much change within a week?
Does this mean that I’m a lousy human because I can so quickly forget the actions of the week before? I like to think that I’m a reasonable girl, not perfect by any means, but not likely to ever want to commit the atrocities that occurred last weekend. Whilst none of us will forget what happened last weekend, the truth is that life goes on and hopefully we can learn from it. Everyday we work out a way to go forward and continue our path. Hopefully that path is being kind to the people around us and making a difference in our small corner of the world, rather than plotting some evil deed.
This week I had a bit of an epiphany and made some decisions about what I want to do next year – some pretty big changes are in the pipeline, which I’ll share with you guys in a future post. I feel as though for the past 18 months that I’ve been swirling in a sea of indecision and procrastination, so it was a welcome change to gain some clarity about some of the things I want to do.
The great thing, was that once I had committed some of the bigger things to my mind, some other things started opening up for me. A while back I registered to teach English to refugees, but I had never heard anything back. I had let it slip my mind as I’d been busy with other projects, but last night I received an email telling me that I had a match – a lovely Burmese family located in my area. I’m going to meet them next week to see if we are a fit, which I am exceptionally excited about!
So, how does this relate to happiness?
Well, I’m going to get all new-agey on you here, so for those not interested, tune out now…..First I should explain a little about me – I’ve spent the majority of my life believing in science – all throughout school I studied chemistry, physics, maths, etc – how on earth I went on to become an accountant really is beyond me, but anyway! My mind was pretty black and white – either is was a yes or a no and there wasn’t much grey area in between. Basically if I couldn’t see it, touch it or smell it, then it didn’t exist in my mind. Over the course of the past two years, however, I’ve had my eyes opened to a different path, which contains a lot more grey. I’ve been noticing more and more the synchronicity of life – yesterday for example I was thinking about a certain friend and then out of the blue she calls inviting me for dinner. Now, I can’t explain why that happened – perhaps it’s just a massive coincidence, but something tells me that it’s something more.
So, back to happiness….I really believe that just by making my mind up on a number of big things this past week, it’s allowed the universe (or whoever you believe in) to open up and show me more. This week has been a real lesson in trust – trust in myself that when I make the right decision, that if I stay open to the process, then more great things will open up for me.
I can’t say that trust is a natural state for me – I’ve always a bit of a worrier, but bit by bit I’m learning to let go and trust that good things will come forth. I think that’s all we can do – we never know when something bad will happen (like last weekend), but we also can’t hide away. By trusting the process, being a good person and remaining open to all opportunities, I believe that we can make the world (at least our portion of it) a better place.
Something that Gretchen talks about in her book is to develop commandments for your life. I’m still mulling over what mine will be, but I think I may have discovered my very first one – ‘Trust in the process’.
Are you interested in happiness, or starting your own happiness project? Have you ever experienced a time where you’ve been more open to something and other great things have happened to you? I’d really love to hear your thoughts below.
As always, have a fantastic day!